Face to Face

How do people have entire conversations face to face? I can do F2F for about 5 seconds before I go crazy with fear. I’d rather stare off into the distance and type words into their ears like we’re both looking at a big projector screen connected to my computer. 

There’s the conversation itself, and then there’s the Oh god, they’re looking at my face as I’m saying these words and I’m looking at their face too and I hope they’re not also thinking this and how should I be standing right now and are they looking for an exit route or do they really want to talk to me and if so, why? What do I want from this conversation? What do I want from this person? Why? 

All these thoughts rushing through the conscious part of my brain while the less conscious goes “uh huh, yeah” and tries to retain the information they’re giving me with their brain and mouth and tongue.