The Way that I Look

I’ve had it too good for too long. i’ve been able to think of myself as more or less physically attractive for the past several months now. having a girl helps. but yesterday i was watching myself on a tournament stream (sadly i tend to watch them more to see what people have to say about me rather than to analyze the gameplay) and came across a comment from one “epic bishly” who was confused for a moment thinking i was BC Top Player Lemmon and then commenting: “damn i was gonna say Taylor looks fucked up what happened XD” implying that i look like a “fucked up” version of Taylor Lemmon which hurts a little because sadly it’s true, and that’s the only time an insults really hits — when the target perceives it as accurate. 

But yeah, bishly, I did look pretty fucked up that day. I failed to sleep all night on somebody’s terrible couch after eating several pounds of burger sludge and that combined with my general dark sickly look resulted in that. you got me. good job. 

I like to tease people. it’s how i build and maintain friendships. but i try to avoid making people feel bad about their appearance. besides my girlfriend. lol. but seriously, in general, i don’t mock people for being physically ugly. i don’t know why but that’s sacred ground for me. maybe it’s me thinking that being ugly is a fate worse than death so i try not to make people feel like they are that.